This is a post from August 05. I thought it was worth bringing back to the forefront of my mind. Recently I haven't been writing much. I know that it's due partially to a lack of discipline, but it's also largely due to a lack of passion. We all find inspiration and passion naturally through different mediums. Mine is dominantly realized in the fruit of undefiled love and obedience to Jesus Christ. The purity and beauty I speak of in this archived blog hasn't been fully lived over the past year and a half. For that I am sorry, not just for writing's sake, but for life's.
August 21, 2005-
The model my heart desires is not a model. And I'm alright with that. My dream is not to begin a superior model that can be reproduced easily and rapidly. The realization is simply to live, to walk in the PURE GIFTING,CALLING, AND COMMISSION of my life. To be and make disciples of Christ, to baptize, and to teach all the commandments of Christ. The way that takes shape for me is entirely different than the way it will likely take shape for you, and that's not only OK, but great, as long as IT IS taking shape in both of us.
To be tied to no form, model, man's standard of success, or societal norm. To be completely obedient through love and wisdom from the power that is within me as a king and priest of the Holy Lord God Almighty. To truly love my neighbor as my Father has commanded me to. The scary, unpredictability of such pure discipleship is real, but the resolve to be disobedient and never seek it causes irreversible atrophy. I can not live whole heartedly, passionately, or successfully with out seeking the direction of such commitment and service. My life should be considered a miserable failure apart from the pursuit of such a life.
No model can satisfy all of the unique needs and desires of real life. I do not reject models, I do not disdain models, and I will not speak badly of models. But I will never subject my life to the restriction of any model. I am a spiritual man raised from the depths of my natural depravity by a loving God who demands fear. That we may understand freedom from the bondage of everything that the sin we've chosen has caused. I serve the perfect author, creator, and sustainer of this world. I have been given all things that pertain to life and godliness through the knowledge of God who called us by glory and virtue. Amen.
